So today is the day after my seventeenth birthday and im considering leaving my family, my mom found a bottle in my room, she's in alcoholics anonymous and she told my older sister she was gonna drink it. My older sister dumped it down the drain, and i called my mom and she's convinced im turning her back into an alcoholic, yet she says I'm the one who needs to go to alcoholics anonymous. She hasn't been to a meeting in years and years. I am not an alcoholic. I hardly ever drink, yet I am at fault for turning her back into an alcoholic. next thing she does? calls my godmother and tells her I have a problem, probably told all her friends i'm the fucked up daughter, who smokes a bunch of pot and drinks and got kicked out of school. She smokes more pot than I do. So if I fuck up in school again, I'm leaving. going to Sholo, Arizona and starting a new life.

In other news its been a few days since i've eaten. and im losing around 3-4 pounds a day. how you ask? I take two different diet pills and i drink literally around 12 bottles of water a day. drinking water helps your liver to work better which makes you lose weight quicker, the diet pills i take are called, Mega-T green tea dietary supplement and Chromium Picolinate. I started losing a lot more with the Chromium, it works a lot better than the Mega-T, but I continue to take both.

I'm at my dads so i dont have my pipe.. I cant smoke because of this, but I want to so badly. A clear head for me equals depressed as fuck, if I had a job i'd leave in two months time to Arizona, but I dont. so hopefully I get one soon so I can save up to get the hell out of here. I hate you new mexico, you ruined my life. I don't want to ever come back.

My heart goes out to all of you.

love Katy